Sooooo decided to start posting in here a bit again.
It’s been 2.5 years since my last entry!!
What’s the update?
Wellll first of all, it’s funny to look at that last leg workout and judge it like whatttt that is pathetic.
Since then, I have far surpassed those numbers. My best numbers in the the gym have been
Squat: 365 lbs
Bench: 265 lbs
Deadlift: around 400 lbs
My competition numbers were lower than that but despite that, I still broke 3 national powerlifting records, and won best lifter award at a competition I smashed in 2014.
In addition to that accomplishment, I also won my class plus the overall title in two separate physique competitions, and competed on the national stage for the first time. 2014 was a year full of competitions!
Rewind to 2013, I got into a serious monogamous relationship with the man I referenced in the later blog entries, and ended up putting a lock on this pussy for him. It was me and him, him and me. It just didn’t work out though. In 2014, then, I made it all about myself and my competitions, and was not even interested in fucking a single person (I know, it was weird).
Once the competitions were over, in 2015, I was kind of struggling to find my place in the world. I decided I didn’t want to compete anymore, at least for a long while, and tried different things on for size. Tai chi, yoga, blah blah blah I fucking hated it. I somehow felt this need to find something “yin” to be calming, to counteract my go-fucking-hard energy. However, it never worked well for me. Yoga just seemed psychologically excruciating. And physically unfulfilling. Upon a whim, I dropped into a krav maga class. Krav maga, if you don’t know, is a super deadly Israeli martial art based upon practical defense and attacks. Elbows, knees, kicks, punches, knives, sticks, guns, wrestling, etc. It’s pretty amazing. When I dropped into that first class and remembered that feeling of domination and violence, it felt like “home” LOL. Ahhh how nice. It felt intense, it felt fun, I felt lost in time, I felt happy, I felt challenged. I gave up my credit card QUICK and was like SIGN ME UP, I’M IN!
So, I have been obsessed, doing tons of krav.
And have been working on having more fun and living life. So, after a year break (during my competitions), I have been travelling, going out to eat a lot and getting thick as fuck (cough cough fat), drinking alcohol, staying out late, and just generally being more social and saying “yes” to activities.
And even more recently, in the past month or so, some wind changed or some inner compass recalibrated, because I have been feeling horny as SHIT!!! For a long time, I was not giving a FUCK about guys. I couldn’t care less! I was happy to wait for my husband, I thought my crazy days were behind me, and whatever. But…no. All of a sudden I feel like going apeshit crazy. So far this has manifested as me fucking 4 different guys and counting (after almost 2 years of abstinence). Totally open to fucking like 30 more in the next few weeks lol. Not like I will, but I would be open to it, just telling you where my mind is. Sex with strangers, sex in public places, involving girls, involving rope, doing a gangbang, I’m open to it!
Xoxoxo
Lexxxy